Another busy week has passed us by. My week ended especially busy with having the entire day and night out and getting home at 930 last night. The boys are still asleep thank goodness!
You know every week I write this blog I keep on thinking, wow God revealed himself to me in a big way this week, that must be it now…but he keeps right on blowing me away.
This week it was all about time. I feel like more than anything else, I am always fighting time. I have often been heard to say “I wish there were more hours in the day!” Countless conversations have been had by all of us about how time seems to be speeding up, we seem busier…and it’s true!
It seems like modern technology allows us more time as we can get more done, but at the end of the day we just fill up those gained hours with more stuff!
This week was no exception to the rule for being short on time. I had to finish a 3,000 word assignment, work, help run playgroup, do reading groups at school, go to the local farmers market and do the normal shopping… fit in visits with friends and family, play with my son, cook, clean (I managed to avoid that one like the plague this week!) and then cook for a church lunch this weekend. Don’t get me wrong all of this was enjoyable, and I love my life, just that it gets really busy! On top of that finding my bit of peace with God was an important thing that I only managed a couple of times this week. Also, I slept crap! So time intruded in my sleep even as I lay there a couple of nights knowing it was getting later and later, cutting my sleep time down and I just COULDN’T SLEEP! Meaning I was wiped out and partly useless the next day.
Then, mid week, my husband and I did some bible study together. We were reading about Judas Iscariot, and somehow the topic went from there to Psalms 90, which is a psalm by Moses- this was new to me. My husband is a chaplain and bible teacher and sometimes gets really passionate about what he has been teaching the kids and this night was no exception, as he told me how the kids had struggled with the idea the to God time is such a different thing.
I wish I could remember what he said that all of a sudden led me to that AHA moment, but unfortunately I can’t! I just know that as he was discussing time, I suddenly realised that timelessness is truly the single most significant thing I am looking forward to about heaven!
“For a thousand years in your sight are like a day that has just gone by, or like a watch in the night.” Psalms 90:4
Imagine not having to know how old you are because your expiry date doesn’t exist…not having to ration time between the many important things in life because you have time for all of them…
“Show me, O Lord, my life’s end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting is my life. You have made my days a mere hand breadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you. Each mans life is but a breath.” Psalm 39:4-5
I wonder how differently we would live if we really could recognise the fleeting nature of our life. How much would we change? I want to be able to live a good life with God as the beating heart and soul of it all, so that when I get to the end of it (or he comes back to pick us up!) I can feel satisfied that I lived the best I could in the breath that was my life.
What a joy it will be to live out eternity in timelessness. I can’t wait. Now, back to my lists and deadlines….boooo!